Waiting and watching the fan move over my head. And my mind is going round and round with it. Wondering how fast I am spinning my web … my life. Suddenly, I feel like I have no control over what lies ahead. That what lies ahead has always petrified me.
I am being to wonder if what picture am I painting. I am scared to fill in the colours. And, neither do I know what am I painting! It all seems so hazy.
It was nice chirpy day when all the silly thoughts began to crowd my mind. It’s just that sometime.. Nothing makes sense.. Neither a life. Everything comes down to zero. It is so scary if life has start from a scratch all over again. Its just that I don’t feel sure enough of what am I heading to. … More importantly why am I going, where I am going.
I can only hope that the road will be a fun ride as it has always been for me.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
24 Random things about me
1 I am a horoscope-addict. So much, that everyday I start with reading how my day would be in 3 different newspapers, i buy. I guess its beginning to influence my life a bit too much now.
2 I am quite a sport. Whether it is some shit-shopping or getting together at a pub. I am always IN.
3 I am a late-latif... though I try very hard not to. In short, I am lazy :)
4 I am money-blind. I can never sort out financial matters...
5 Food.. has been my love. Now, its no longer that way. I guess, I am concerned of my growing assets.
6 I have this disbelief that I sing well... pretty well.
7 I have a zillion self-doubts. Not about my abilities but wat will I do of them
8 Appreciation works wonders with me. And so does criticism.
9 Cinema is my religion I hate to be around pop-corn eating, gossiping jerks in movie-hall. It irks me to the end. Music is a drug. Books are my Bible.
10 When I am happy, it is evident. When I am sad, it is obvious. But, only I can work my way out of it. Sometimes, the most silliest moment can cheer me up.
11 I am, well, selfish. I have always been important to me. I believe that you got to love yourself first, to love somebody else.
12 I am normally an organised person but sometimes slip into state of anarchy.
13 I love to learn newer and newer things in life.
14 I am very self-contradictory. I may not do what I think because, I was thinking the other way that time.
15 I have only grown to understand that I love my family more than ever.
16 My family has taught me this biggest maxim of my life: Loving does not mine that I shall do anything for you. But it is accepting the differences and co-existing. It makes you so much more stronger, set you free and still keeps you grounded in love.
17 I sometimes think I have become a bunchfull of memories. But then, that is how I would like to see myself grow old. 'Knitting some damn sweater for my beloved and story-telling about my not-so-adventurous-life to my grandchildren.'
18 I always think of my life to be one great adventure. Not that I have done anything adventurous but still.. I am a travel-freak who has never travelled much.
19 I love kids. Its just that I can connect with them - their innocence, their tell-a-tale adventures, their world where nothing just seems impossible.
20 I am certainly not an ambitious, say career-wise. But ambitious and optimist about the way I want to and will lead my life. Career is just one part of life. It does not have that much prominence in my life. But that doesn't mean I will be a loser.
21 I am scared of heights. But I have had my highest rushes when I am atop a mountain.
22 My friends are literally - my life.
23 I'll believe in freedom. Freedom of thought, action and dreams, of course. But, I fail to understand how do women of my generation equate the word 'freedom' with 'freedom to smoke, dope and fuck'
24 Few things I believe in/ realised: 'Love yourself, to love somebody else.' 'Love don't come easy for me.' 'If you love/like somebody, set free them free.'
2 I am quite a sport. Whether it is some shit-shopping or getting together at a pub. I am always IN.
3 I am a late-latif... though I try very hard not to. In short, I am lazy :)
4 I am money-blind. I can never sort out financial matters...
5 Food.. has been my love. Now, its no longer that way. I guess, I am concerned of my growing assets.
6 I have this disbelief that I sing well... pretty well.
7 I have a zillion self-doubts. Not about my abilities but wat will I do of them
8 Appreciation works wonders with me. And so does criticism.
9 Cinema is my religion I hate to be around pop-corn eating, gossiping jerks in movie-hall. It irks me to the end. Music is a drug. Books are my Bible.
10 When I am happy, it is evident. When I am sad, it is obvious. But, only I can work my way out of it. Sometimes, the most silliest moment can cheer me up.
11 I am, well, selfish. I have always been important to me. I believe that you got to love yourself first, to love somebody else.
12 I am normally an organised person but sometimes slip into state of anarchy.
13 I love to learn newer and newer things in life.
14 I am very self-contradictory. I may not do what I think because, I was thinking the other way that time.
15 I have only grown to understand that I love my family more than ever.
16 My family has taught me this biggest maxim of my life: Loving does not mine that I shall do anything for you. But it is accepting the differences and co-existing. It makes you so much more stronger, set you free and still keeps you grounded in love.
17 I sometimes think I have become a bunchfull of memories. But then, that is how I would like to see myself grow old. 'Knitting some damn sweater for my beloved and story-telling about my not-so-adventurous-life to my grandchildren.'
18 I always think of my life to be one great adventure. Not that I have done anything adventurous but still.. I am a travel-freak who has never travelled much.
19 I love kids. Its just that I can connect with them - their innocence, their tell-a-tale adventures, their world where nothing just seems impossible.
20 I am certainly not an ambitious, say career-wise. But ambitious and optimist about the way I want to and will lead my life. Career is just one part of life. It does not have that much prominence in my life. But that doesn't mean I will be a loser.
21 I am scared of heights. But I have had my highest rushes when I am atop a mountain.
22 My friends are literally - my life.
23 I'll believe in freedom. Freedom of thought, action and dreams, of course. But, I fail to understand how do women of my generation equate the word 'freedom' with 'freedom to smoke, dope and fuck'
24 Few things I believe in/ realised: 'Love yourself, to love somebody else.' 'Love don't come easy for me.' 'If you love/like somebody, set free them free.'
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